I Wanna Kiw You....What?

My little man tells his father tonight:"Da, I wanna kiw you.?

"what? You want to Key me?"

"No. I wanna kiw you."

"Show me what you want"

"K, way on na fwooe"

"Like this?" Kneeling down to give a horsey ride.

"No da. na fwoo."

"Like this?" my husband asks as he lies down on his stomach?

"No da! Na fwooe!"

My husband roles over on his back, "Like this?"

"Yes! Den I do dis" he runs and jumps on his daddys belly and my hubby says "Your killing me! Your killing me!"

to which my son replies "Dat wight da, I do again!"

So if my little man asks to kill you you know understand what is expected of you. My husband and I were laughing! And still we are laughing!

For those of you who have not heard the news, I am expecting my third, the eighth in our clan. I am already (I hate to admit) looking at things and excited that they will be gone and over with the next year and on.

I have been watching the two younger one's as of late and they are already growing so fast. It blows me away! It is fun to watch each step in the discovery aspect of life, whether it be language, book knowledge, social skills, or just the day to day things life presents. I see myself growing sometimes and wonder why I have not yet learned some of the lessons I seem to be taught again and again. There seems to be degrees by which to learn some of life's lessons.

The different seasons of life and lessons that come with those seasons seem to cease to surprise me. My little man is becoming quite verbal and expressive. He has left us all giggling at one time or another these recent days. My Little lady loves to collect things. Everything to be exact. Be it rocks, leaves, or the tags from her clothes she feels a great need to keep it all. I need to help her become organized in her collecting and maybe focused on one or two things instead of everything.

So much to do and so little time. Actually I am going trough this spot in time where I am having difficulty being organized myself. It is over whelming. Where to begin? What are my priorities? What do I want accomplished. Dang. I look at things as a whole and think: "Must simplify. Must get rid of" then I begin to look at things individually and think "Must hold on. May need in the future." *Sigh* There are things that are replaceable. There are also things that seem necessary, yet it has been quite a while since I have used it...and I hate to admit I may have forgot about it and already replaced it. Is this the "American cycle" I need to leave it. I am on my way out.

Honesty

A conversation over heard just now between my 2 yr old and 12 yr old:

"Ugh! What is that smell?" asked with disgust by the 12 yr old.

"Dat me!" responds the two yr old quite too proudly after filling his diaper.

I have had a lot on my mind as of late. This year I am learning some good lessons. I have learned I can't please everyone. Some people don't want you to please them, they are looking for reasons to dis-like you for what ever reason the conjure up. I am becoming Okay with that. I am not here to please everyone, mainly my Heavenly Father, Husband, and myself. If I can help others along the way that is great, but not necessary. I am feeling more comfortable with that than I have been in the past.

Also in these lessons I have come to this conclusion: I am blessed, I am. I have a husband who loves and adores me despite my short comings. He is my very best friend. He has the most reliable advice for someone I can talk to in person. I have a Heavenly Father that not only loves me, but is patient with me as I learn these lessons and do my best in finding a happy medium when I swing from right to left. He too is a reliable source on which I can rely. He truely wants my happiness, even if gaining that happiness feels painful at times.

Through these lessons I am learning to respect myself and not let others walk all over me. I don't have time to feel sorry for myself. My children need a mother whose focus is on them, not herself. I am finding there are many "gifts" I don't have to accept. I do better with out them. I am still learning to gracefully decline these gifts, it will come with time. Some "gifts" aren't intended to be warm fuzzies. I am learning to recognize the difference.

As long as I respect myself and others I am doing Okay. It helps to remind myself that they are children of God as well, and He loves them as He does me. I do have to say in the 'moment of things' I do forget this sometimes. Again, thanks to an older brother who has made it possible to repent.

Over all, I am thankful for the gospel in my life. With out it, I think I have been given many reasons to have become a bitter, acidic person. I am not perfect, but I am happy with my life and the friends that come and go, and the ones that stay. I am blessed.

My minds eye...

Well we are well into the summer! Enjoying zucchini from the garden, a tomato at a time, and fresh green beans. My husband makes the best fried rice this time of year with products from our garden. I am one lucky lady! The boys have been keeping up the yard and enjoying each other. I am enjoying a visit from my mom. Yesterday I took the two little ones to a petting farm. For the most part they enjoyed it. The park has two Shetland ponies, a mule, pot-belly pig, a couple kids, a calf, chickens, a ferret, a hamster, and a few other miscellaneous animals. The youngest pony grabbed one of the baby goats on the hip and carried it around while it cried for help. I don't think this scared my daughter badly, but my son would have nothing to do with it after words. I am grateful to the good friends I have out here who are there for me for big and small things. I am looking forward to seeing our young man go to the temple for his first time. He is excited about the best of things this summer: going to the temple, spending time with family, having his big brother home for the fall. I look at the innocents of these kids and sometimes wish I could be there again. I don't want to relive anything, I am content with up-until-now, its just the joy found in little things. I think as an adult I get caught up in moments and forget to enjoy little things along the way. That is something I need to work on. Any way, these are a few of my thoughts as of late.