R.I.P.

We became friend just over a year and a half ago. I took most of your friends under my wing and with thought and delight we became one in purpose. You on the other hand have been more stubborn than I would have guessed. Each day I would eye you and be glad you weren't quite mine. I would go days if I could to pass and not eye you and your begrudging look.

Once in a great while I would try to imagine you as to what would please my eye, but come up a blank each time that I tried. And so I thought I might wait. At time you would most assuredly come to understand. I would let you come and see my terms. I was patient, spoke no unkind words or be shirked. I waited a year, nearly two and so, I have yet to see your remorse. Still you show me none, nor any desire to change.

Well, today I took it into my hands! I tore and I pried, I took no thought any more. For I see that our will can not become one with out some motivation on your side. As I tore at your decor
and ripped them to shreds my imagination ran rampid with glee! For you see, it is now I can imagine you as I please and you will be more welcoming to those who enter thee!

The Loony Toons Paper has put up its fight, a good one I say in deed. However its down now and cant be replaced, now my mind can be put at ease. Farewell paper, I will store the memories you have left, and remember things I would not repeat.

Child Like

I have been pondering a lot lately why it is God asks us to become as little children.

Children are meek. They forgive easily. Children trust whole heartily. They look past our flaws, in fact I think they don't notice them at times. They do their best to do their best. They give simple and precious gifts. They are made happy with simple acts of love and don't need a lot, just love attention and to know they are number one in your book. They love to be held and love praise. They are kind to everyone(I realize this is not always in their favor). They turn to their parents when they are hurt to find comfort. they are precious beyond words.

So what can I learn from this?

I need to be meek and easy to forgive. I need to trust my Heavenly Father whole heartily. I need to look past others flaws and love them for who they are. Respect them.

I need to give my best and when I fail, trust that God will forgive me and take me back. I need to give my time to those in my stewardship, let them know they are loved, words are not enough, actions often speak louder that words.

I need to look for the blessings in my life and focus on them rather than the negative that life seems to throw my way some days. If I give time to think about these things, I can more see the hand of God in my life and then turn what look like stumbling blocks into stepping stones. These stones can bring me closer to Him rather than away. In reaching for Him I will feel His arms around me. I may even hear His voice in my heart if I take the time to listen.

When I am hurt or angry I should turn to the Lord to find peace and comfort. By counting the blessing He has placed in my life...namely the Savior, there should be no question that I am number one in his book. I should trust that He loves me just like he loves the next person. With that, He does love the other person and so I should forgive them or ask their forgiveness. Then the circle begins again, and again I need to humble myself and relearn these basic steps.

I am sure there is much more to be learned from this, but this is the lesson I have learned in this sitting.

Another great weekend has come and gone. We have family that moved a bit closer, so we went out to help them unpack a bit. I had no clue what a joy it was going to be. We had others join us in our cause, and it was a blast to get to know them! Oh the stories I heard! They were great! I bet there was some black mail material shared. We all had a great time!

It will be so nice having more family in our radius!

Our eldest son was home for the week and it was nice having him around. He joined us with family on his way back to school. He made most of the way back to school without incident. However, towards the end he threw in a couple adventures just to spice up the monotony of the drive. He was able to get to know Ogden a bit better, and then a highway patrol officer just outside of Pocatello. Oh, I shouldn't leave the last part hanging like that. His car broke down. The officer assisted him in getting a tow truck. His sister was out there quick as a flash to help him the rest of his stretch, that was a relief to us.

In his second adventure our guy tried to call us to let us know what was happening and see if his Dad had suggestions in what may be the problem. We were in a meeting and were not able to leave right away to answer the call, he called 9 times! I was worried, so when i called him back, I asked if everything was alright. His response was alarming to say the least, it went something to this effect: "my car broke down, My friend tried to wave down some help, got hit by a car and we are waiting for an ambulance!!!" I just about had a heart attack right there and then. I am glad though that it was not the case.

With that, I hope you have a great week. Until next time!

I had a great weekend! Saturday I was able to finish a project and get it out the door, I love creating, and with the little ones it is once in a while rather than all the time. No complaints though. They are growing like weeds, and before I know it they will be graduating from college. I was also able to begin at parting with things. It felt great! I took four bags and several items to Goodwill, its like a load off my shoulders. Did I say it felt great?

Sunday we had family come visit! All the way from Georgia, which brought in family from surrounding areas as well! The timing of the get together was great! I was able to see my cousins little guy who was an Easter baby, they are so precious when the are fresh from heaven. It was nice to take a moment and slow down. Pleasant indeed! Being able to catch up with one another. It is crazy how much children can grow in one year!

It seems this season of life is a busy one! Everyone is growing up and running in circles, just trying to hold on to life for the ride it provides. We have graduations coming up, family moving a bit closer, it seems between my husbands work, church callings and children's school and work, it is hard to find the time to take a breath. Here in a month or so, the dynamics will change and we will have the chance to enjoy it a bit more I am sure.

Any way, life is good, getting better everyday. I hope yours is the same. I hope it is wonderful!

Well, I need to de-clutter my life. It seems like I just keep collecting things. It is funny the things I hold onto and the reason behind it. When I die, my children wont want my clutter, and they certainly wont want to go though it all. I don't expect to die any time soon, however, I can cut back on things. Maybe if I de-clutter, it will help me simplify my life as well. Just looking around, I see my stuff and feel overwhelmed, it is almost crazy. I Don't think I am quite to the hording stage, but I am heading there, so I am going to go through things and get de-cluttered, maybe I will feel like I have a little more control of my surroundings this way. Any way, here goes!

This may have been more that you wanted to know...but I at least have it off my chest. Right?

Well,this past week has been an adventure. Monday I discovered I was not expecting like I had thought. It was a disappointment. I had a good friend remind me that God is in charge and knows what is best for me and my family. This brought some comfort. I had another friend with whom I could talk a little and that seemed to take some weight off. Its funny, I was trying to decide: How does one act when they discovered they have miscarried? I don't want to be bitter, and I want to be there for my friends who are pregnant and having babies. I have two healthy little tykes. I wasn't far enough along to get too attached, I had been excited, but hadn't heard a heart beat. I felt like the feelings I was feeling were almost selfish. I know there are others out there who have miscarried many times, sometimes further along. I was glad my friend reminded me that God does know when it is right for my last one to come down. I just have to be patient. Okay, enough with this, other great things have happened since.

We had a whole slue of friends over to have a farewell for some long time friends who are moving on and out. I have to admit, this is the first time I have actually been able to sit back and enjoy having a gathering at my home. Don't get me wrong, I love having friends over! However, this is the first time I didn't stress about weather or not the house was clean enough. I told myself that true friends will be glad to see that my house can be a bit chaotic at times too! It turned out I was able to get it mostly orderly(don't tell any one my vacuum is out of order, and I ran out of time for the mopping...) We had a potluck and everyone seemed to have a great time! When all was said and done you would have never known we had a herd of people over. It was great!!!

This weekend we have been enjoying Conference and listening to the leaders. There are several areas I can work on in bettering and improving myself. I will just start with one at a time and do my best.

So, that is what has been missed out on this past little blurb I have not written. Life is good and taking it one day at a time seems to be the way to go these days, so lets do it!